I cannot say you are a good friend to me anymore, or if you ever were. Our friendship has been a one sided relationship that has only brought me down with the negativity you've had on life and the low esteem you have on yourself. I have turned into a person that I do not like when trying to fit in with you and your friends. And the comments you make about you not wanting to hangout with my friends have hurt me even more.
I cannot fit in with your friends because I do not want to become materialistic and an alcoholic like most of them are and that you are turning into. Maybe it is just you reverting back to your "college years" but when I met you, you were not like that. And maybe that is my problem, that I liked you for someone you were pretending to be.
This is not just something sudden or a one time thing that made me upset. But it comes from analyzing my life and finding out why I do not like myself at the moment. When so many others lift me up, it was an easy thing to find out what brought me down.
I have found out how I need to change (referring to a past post). My changing needs to be to let you go, since it seems you already have let me go. To let you have another one sided friendship with someone else. Because I can not go through a friendship not knowing if you even care about me like I do you.
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